Blogmas 2019: Day Nine - How I Keep My Mum's Memory Alive Over Christmas
In last year’s Blogmas, I talked about how I cope with grief over Christmas so I thought this year, I would expand on that a bit more and be more honest and open about how I keep my mum's memory alive during the season and what I do that's the same and that's different.
For some people, celebrating Christmas is the last thing
they want to even think about because of grief and other circumstances that are
difficult – and that’s fair enough. Admittedly, the first two Christmases
without my Mum I didn’t celebrate anything because, quite frankly, I didn’t see
the point and I honestly just didn’t want to. However, after some time, I
remembered how much my Mum loved the season and how much she would have wanted
us to keep the celebrations alive still, even though she was no longer with us.
Decorating Family Home
Obviously, my flat is decorated before we even get to
December because we love making home seem more magical with the addition of
Christmas decorations and a tree etc. However, when I go home for a few days
over Christmas, I make sure I get my dad or brother into the loft to get the tree
and decorations down so I can decorate the family home too. Much to my annoyance,
we don’t have the decorations left that my mum collected over the years, but I still
try to get the tree up and decorate how she would have liked.
Keeping Some of the Christmas Day Traditions
Okay so I’m gonna get real here and admit that Christmas Day
is nothing like it was when my mum was alive. That’s nothing against my dad and
brother but it’s just very painfully obvious there’s someone missing from the
day. I love the whole lead up to Christmas but a lot of the times on the day
itself, I feel really lonely. Again, that’s nobody’s fault and is just a reflection
on the close relationship my mum and I had. So, we try and keep some of the traditions
we used to have with my mum alive. We start the day with presents exchanging
and then we have breakfast whilst watching a Christmas film. The rest of the
day, I spend watching Christmas films like I did with my mum and my dad and
brother watch or do their own thing. Then, of course, we make Christmas dinner
(they always have Quorn with me instead of actual meat) and eat it together round
the table. It may not seem like much to some people but it’s what we can do.
Starting My Own Traditions Inspired by My Mum
Like I said before, I love decorating our flat and over the
past few years, Jade and I have gotten into collecting ornaments for the tree.
Mostly they tend to be Disney themed and each year, we’ve opted to buy one new
ornament from Shop Disney to add to our collection – much like my mum collected
tree ornaments over the years.
To anyone coping with grief or something else that’s making Christmas
hard: it’s okay to not be okay. It’s okay not to feel jolly and in the
Christmas spirit. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise and if you feel sad on Christmas
Day then that’s okay too. Just know that you’re not alone and that my DMs are
always open if you need someone to chat to.
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